Breathlesssssssssssss♥

If our love was a fairytale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we’d say I do

And if we had babies they would look like you
It’d be so beautiful if that came true
You don’t even know how very special you are

Chorus

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless

And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I’m thankful for the life we’ve made

And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don’t even know how very special you are

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life

You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You’re like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You’re something special
I only hope that I’ll one day deserve what you give me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless
Breathless

``You leave me breathlessss!``

Disappointed ♥

He is coming back today...

but I don't feel happy at all.. I don't know why..

If last time.. I really very happy but today... no feeling at all...

sometimes I really feel that I'm starting to be cold blooded..

cause the feelings in me now I also don't what is that...

feel like crying?? No..

feel like hurting?? No..

Inside I feel very numb...

I hurt too much and cried too much until I don't have that kind

of feelings to be hurt and cried..

my heart become very numb...

I don't know why I don't feel happy maybe because I'm disappointed...

yeaa~ actually I do feel disappointed...

cause you see tomorrow I will be going to school and take my Form 5 text books..

and my mum has take leave...

she take leave for today and tomorrow also..

and Friday is a holiday replacement for my mother..

so that means 3 days including today my mother also off..

sigh...

means we wont see each other until my school reopen...

maybe he thought after that trip we can see each other

but no...

feel so disappointed..

but feel disappointed also no use cause nothing will change at all...

he said no matter how busy am I after school reopen

we will still have the chance to meet each other...

but I really don't have the hope...

the more I hope the more I will be disappointed

keep everything inside is really very suffering but...

to avoid both of us quarrel I really need to do like that

and pretend that I'm okay or maybe to pretend to be nothing..

sigh...

I hope I can be strong enough..

but how??

爱你不辛苦但想念你很辛苦！

``Disappointed!``

♥

Wooo~~ He reach Langkawi already...

plus he is very happy together with his friends now~

but me I was sitting in front of the computer and writing a sad blog for

you to read.. :/

Today I've been a very bad girl cause I lied to him ><

SORRY!

until now I didn't tell him...

I lied that today is my last day of working 

but actually nope!

yesterday is my last day...

and I didn't tell him also...

hmmm... I feel like I'm making a habit now...

Everything I also didn't tell him~ ><

hmmm~ if he knows that he sure will

sigh!

want

whole day thinking of him and less text him cause he is having fun with his 

FRIENDS!

I really feel like shouting and crying!

I try not to but is very hard...

especially when I miss him..

I tell myself that I don't miss him but actually I miss him the most!

Is so hard for me!

I very 'SAN FU' !

and I can't burst everything out...

If I burst everything out...

both of us will start to quarrel...

and we will have a cold war.....

sigh!~

I miss him so much...

feel like hugging him tightly...

and feel like crying on his shoulder...

I cannot cry! cause last time I promise him before that I wont cry anymore!

I need to smile no matter how hard it is...

Actually now I know why I don't want him to go to this trip..

because no matter how free is he also...

his friends will keep on calling him to accompany them go here and there..

but he don't accompany me worr~ even text messages also very hard

Just now talking with him on the phone and than his friends call him to go out..

see how 'busy' is he~

than of cause I will said...

'U go out with your friends I don't want to disturb you larr... No need

to text me le...'

 but in my heart I was like hoping so much that he will text me.. but is okay...

 and now he is sleeping cause just now he text me that he is going to sleep...

sigh~ 

Day 1 is going to past..

now is 11:39 PM

but still got 2 days...

that I need to wait~ 

how to wait?

If you say I got work than is okay cause time will past very fast..

but now I'm not... I need to stay at home all day thinking of him... ><

SUFFERING man! >< 

Loving someone is not suffering but missing someone is damn

SUFFERING! 

 












爱一个人不辛苦但想念一个人很辛苦

``I miss you lotsss!

Feelings♥

Christmas has past!

I'm happy that he gave me a Christmas present ^^

now is 1:50 AM~

means is already Sunday and also means that tonight

he will go to Langkawi with his friends.

Actually when he told me that tomorrow before he go to school

and meet his friends he will come to my work place and visit me

but somehow this kind of feelings makes me very down and unhappy

If it's last time he said he will come and find me I'm sure will be very happy

but just now when he said on the phone my mood totally change~ 

maybe because I miss him too much.... ><

for me I really don't wish he will go cause when he go I don't think

he will have the time to contact me

and I will never ever know what is he doing and I will miss him very much.

He called me to trust him, yes! I trust.

but I'm scared!

somehow this feelings makes me very emo!

sigh!

But sometimes I really do feel jealous about his friends...

when he together with them he sure will be very happy

but when he together with me he was like.....

hmmm... how to say? 

was like....... this  :/  ?

he said that he together with me is happy but I didn't saw it

and I didn't felt it also.

I remember that day when it was his birthday~

he said his house will be having a BBQ for his birthday celebration

with his friends and than I was just joking and said I wanted to joined also~

he said all boys and if I went there his friends will say 'many many things'

and he don't like it actually...

so I was thinking that is true if he is having me around I will cause him unhappy..

not just that... he also got said that many many aunties keep on complaining 

to his mother and said that he got girlfriend and more so he feels very annoyed...

so somehow this feelings comes and I asked and tell myself...

 If he feel so annoyed about it than why we still want to go out together??

If we didn't go out than those aunties will never saw him together with me and

they will never say anything about it~

Many things I never tell him because I know he will feel very annoying...

sometimes I cry myself to sleep I also didn't tell him...

Is already worth it smiling in front of him...

and letting him know that I was okay but actually I'm not...

Hurting and crying behind is good not to let him know anything about it.

Actually is true also that I didn't tell him if I tell him also nothing will change

just like just now I really feel like telling him not to go but...

if he really didn't go will he be happy about it???

NO!!

he will never be... 

so what to do?? 

all I can do is keep all the feelings inside and hope that we wont quarrel

again and again anymore...

But how long can I keep??

I don't know.....

:(((

Feelings♥

`` Is hard to keep all the sad feelings inside! ``

Appreciate♥ Meaningful

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天外飞仙

From this movie I have watched..

It is really very touching somehow very funny also~ :D

This show is about love and appreciation~ ^^

From this show I have learned to be appreciate the time that I have 

together with my dear~

I never try to waste the time that I have with him because 

I will never know what will happen tomorrow~ :)

Anyway~ Just wanna say this movie is awsome! :DD

Is fun to watch it~ heheheh! :DDDDDDDDDD

``Ejoyed!``

Making Decision♥

2 days... it has been 2 days we been like this...

and now today I said break up!

hmmmm~ I really don't feel like breaking up with you

but together with me you will never be happy and  you will be hurt all the time 

by me! 

I love you! and how can I see you hurt so much!!

If I just see you hurt only and didn't do anything that means I don't love you...

I said I want to break up it doesn't mean I don't treasure you or don't love you~

In my heart I treasure you the most and I love you the most..

but how can I continue seeing you hurt so much because of me???

There are so many ways to love someone...

sacrifices...lies...

you said you will give me 2 days time to think about it...

and today when you hug me tightly and said 

that you are not willing to break and leave me...

In my heart I was saying I'm not willing to do that also... 

My heart say no but my mouth say yess!~

what can I do now???

I love you so much and I really don't want to leave you

but think again if you continue together with you wont happy~ right?!

and some more you will hurt more~

I have told you that I love too much already...

Because I love you too deep and it will hurt you more~

Can you think again??? 

If you are me.... and I am you... what will you do???

will choose the same like me??

You said that I have promise you not to leave you... 

but inside my heart... I really didn't leave you..

Just as I promise right??

I don't know what to do~

If i change my mind I scared you will regret!

but if I didn't change my mind I scared I will regret~

what to do??

to make this kind of decision I really don't dare to choose both of the answer~

because it will still make us unhappy no matter what I choose.. right?

maybe I'm wrong..

maybe one of the answer will give us happiness

but which answer??

what if I choose wrong?? 

what will gonna happen to us??

what will gonna happen in future??

I don't know! 

my head full of question marks...

keep on asking myself which answer is the correct one..

so that both of us wont suffer~~

right??

If it's you... what will you choose???

continue?? or break?? 

sighhhh....~~~

Headache!!!! 

If i give you choose... will you choose for me?? 

I really very tired of thinking about those answers!

Is very BOTHERSOME!!! 

can give up??
sighhh~~ DD:

It's Hard To Make A Decision!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

``Just Because I Love You! ♥``