Disappointed ♥

He is coming back today...

but I don't feel happy at all.. I don't know why..

If last time.. I really very happy but today... no feeling at all...

sometimes I really feel that I'm starting to be cold blooded..

cause the feelings in me now I also don't what is that...

feel like crying?? No..

feel like hurting?? No..

Inside I feel very numb...

I hurt too much and cried too much until I don't have that kind

of feelings to be hurt and cried..

my heart become very numb...

I don't know why I don't feel happy maybe because I'm disappointed...

yeaa~ actually I do feel disappointed...

cause you see tomorrow I will be going to school and take my Form 5 text books..

and my mum has take leave...

she take leave for today and tomorrow also..

and Friday is a holiday replacement for my mother..

so that means 3 days including today my mother also off..

sigh...

means we wont see each other until my school reopen...

maybe he thought after that trip we can see each other

but no...

feel so disappointed..

but feel disappointed also no use cause nothing will change at all...

he said no matter how busy am I after school reopen

we will still have the chance to meet each other...

but I really don't have the hope...

the more I hope the more I will be disappointed

keep everything inside is really very suffering but...

to avoid both of us quarrel I really need to do like that

and pretend that I'm okay or maybe to pretend to be nothing..

sigh...

I hope I can be strong enough..

but how??

爱你不辛苦但想念你很辛苦！

``Disappointed!``