things in my mind today~~

dis morning~ i wake up and sms him bout my phone is d expired~

so....~ after dat i oso told him bout i'm going to de 7-11

to buy reload card~ den of coz he said okie and if i reach 7-11 tell him..

but i told myself~ my phone d expired de lerr~~ how to tell?? ==

so i when i reach 7-11 i asked de guy got digi RM 10 or not~

de guy said nope~ i was like.... O.O

OH NOOOOOOO~~  how am i going to tell him dat i d at 7-11???

i din think so much so i walk back to school~ den suddenly when

i was waiting for my turn to thumb print my phone rings~ 

i was like~ O.O againnnn!!! >< but luckily dat time got alot of ppl

talking~ so de prefect doesn't hear or notice anything bout me~

so dat was de time it makes me feel nervous~ i keep on thinking dat

is he still waiting for me??? dat time was like going to late for going in to

de hall~ i was very scare and nervous~ and feel so sorry to him 

and his frens bcoz of me~ they late~

but luckily when i went in de hall i saw his fren~~ i was like~

THANK GOD!! >< 

but my heart still feel very sorry to him and his frens~

i thought i wan to go and say sorry de~ but dunno why suddenly when 

i saw him was like very happy talking to a prefect~

my heart doesn't feel good at all~ so i din said any sorry to him~

but in class i was thinking...

dat~~ i scare one day i will like last time le~ 

i reali very scare~ ><

when recess~ actually i din think of seeing him de~

but~ he did came and look for me~ i was happy^^

but after dat~ my mood when down abit~

dunno why~ i was like think too much jorr~

actually i reali very scare my last time gehx character 

come back again le~ T^T i reali dun wan it to happen in

dis relationship~ i juz wan to be like those girl

dat will give their bf freedom and wont be small gas~

'' can i reali b like those girl??? ''

it seems like bcoz i scare dat my last time gehx characteristic

come back... i onli dun dare to put my whole heart in dis 

relationship~ bcoz i scare it will like last time~

de way i hurt de one i love de most in dis world~

de way i misunderstood him~

de way i scold him~

de way i cried in front of him~

to think back de past~ i feel so sorry~~

so i dun wan dis time gehx relationship to end like last time~

i noe~ all i can do now is to control or mayb to change myself~

but sometimes is not dat i dun wan to control~

is dat if i reali give him too much freedom~ i reali very scare

one day he will walk away from me~

and i going to be alone~ for a whole life~ 

i dun wan dis to happen~ 

even now if he said he wan to go out wit his fren~

i oso scare~ is juz dat i force myself not to think~

if not my wrist d got many line luuu~ ><

haizz~ can dis relationship will last??? 

``我爱你 TFS♥``