Words In my Heart♥

Actually today I can be very happy! 

but something makes me really very unhappy 

and some more very hurt!

I can see that you are not happy with it actually....

hmmm... Sometimes I really feel like asking...

is our picture that ugly?? 

If it is than why you still wanna keep it?

to make me feel happy about it?

yeaa~ Is true last time I really do hope that we can take many nice picture

It happened but you're not happy at all with the picture..

I don't know why???

Does it make you feel shame about it??

and some more you purposely to put the picture back...

I was like thinking...

If you do all this to make me happy only 

than no need... I don't need you to lie to me about your feelings..

If you don't like to do anything than just tell me...

Is true that I will be hurt but for you I'm okay with it.

Maybe for other girls or boys they think that I'm crazy!

but I feel hurt! VERY HURT!

You know why??

I don't think you know~ 

Yaa... Inside your heart you will say that you hurt a lot also...

but I was trying my best to be more better than before..

I was trying not to be last time... 

I'm trying my very best!

I know outside there are much more girl which is better than me

I know I can't become them... all I can do is improve myself!

Improve myself all for YOU!

YOU!

YOU!

YOU!

every time I wanted to do something or asked something...

I will think about your feelings first..

If it will make you unhappy... I will not do it or say it!

I will keep inside my heart!

You called me to tell everything...

You think I don't want to tell you everything??

I really hope I really can tell you everything... but..

Just because I care about your feelings I only didn't tell you about my feelings.

All I want is to see you happy!

That's all!!

I do all this is hope that our relationship will last.

I really don't hope that our relationship end like this~

even though it's suffer a lot but I will still do it just because of YOU~!

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Hmmm... Does it look very ugly??

hmm~ just the edit only looks ugly because we need to be fast!! ><

hehehe! :D

Is happy that we have took this picture.

If you don't like it than give it to me.. I'll keep it properly luu~ :D

``All Because of LOVE!``

31/12/10 New Year!

It's New Year! 

today went to Bintang Walk and Petaling Street(China Town).

Went there and saw many people there and also got one small concert at Bintang Walk! ><

Too short so I can't see their performance~ DD:

When me and my mum reach there both of us was like...

People Mountain People Sea ohhhhhh! O.O

but anyway.. went there with mummy and have fun and experience also~ ><

but I hope I can go with my dear! DDD:

sad! >< he went there with his friends!

Now is 12:56 AM

and it's also means that today is 1.1.11 ^^

but actually the reason I wrote this blog is not about the places I've went..

Is about my feelings today.. hmmm~ not today is yesterday! >< heheheh! :D

He read my blog! and he know why and what I'm not happy about! ><

sometimes I really do want him to know more about my feelings

but after letting him know about my feelings

I feel a bit regret cause he will never let me know what is he doing! 

Just like just now if I didn't asked him that is he going out with friends

he also won't tell me! D:

sad! 

and... and... and....

I think he got tell his friends that I am not happy with him because he went to that trip

and his friends ask him is everything okay

and he answered is okay, I know what to do

WOWwwWW! 

what does that means?? does it sounds good??? 

hmmmm~ I don't think so.....

Just now I was thinking of asking him one question...

question about...... hmmmm~~

"What If one day I said I want to CLOSE UP your heart, what will you say?"

but I didn't ask! ><

I don't know how to open my mouth!

Actually I got this feeling that now he really don't need me~

he have his friends is already enough...

together with me I really cannot give him any happiness...

just like yesterday 31/12/10... the way I treated him really very different from before! ><

I don't know why!~ maybe because I know he don't need me anymore~ D:

I don't know why I will have this kind of feelings in me

maybe because I heard something that should not be hear

or saw something that should not be seen ><

hmmm~ I don't know! 

and... and... and......

One more feeling which is very terrible! ><

that is I think he choose his 'kai mui' better than me!

I think he will be more happier if he together with his 'sister'

Hope he wont angry about it if he knows it! ><

Feel sorry to him! ><

yesterday he took away my numbness and I can feel the love and pain again! 

:DDD

so happy that I can have the feelings back! :D wooooohooooo! 

but the sad thing is should I or can I leave him??

seeing him together with me so unhappy makes me hurt a lot!

should I tell him??? ><

What should I do???

I really don't want to see him unhappy anymore!

DDDDDD:

``Sorry Dear! I Love You! ``